Mission: CHANGE
Wednesday, November 4, 2009It’s the second day of classes and I’m still stuck in my vacation moments. I’d still like to travel almost anywhere without thought of school projects left undone and without though of school obligations which leads to stress at some point.
As I sat sluggishly in one of my minor subjects, the teacher wrote something on the board that made me follow it until the last stroke was finished. It was one word that puts me in a dilemma most of the time- MISSION.
It was a flat piece of written art on the board but it struck me and left the biggest question that might change me forever once I find the answer. “What is my ultimate mission?” Most people wait for signs and others just don’t care. But there are those who would do everything to find their mission. What’s the fuss all about? Why do we have to know and find out if we will still turn to ashes someday?
Our ultimate purpose in this world is to find our mission, or purpose and our direction. As the juvenile members of the society, we have a mission of being heard and of making a CHANGE. We have the mission to be able to have a voice in every issue and discussion when it comes to both national and international concerns.
To create CHANGE amidst the turmoil and disasters.
To CHANGE ourselves to become better.
These changes are easy to say but it’s a work as big as the galaxies and we need battalions of people to be one to make change happen. That’s where the youth comes in!!!
On November 16-17 2009, YES2009 or the YOUTH ENGAGEMENT SUMMIT 2009 will be held and the CHANGE experience begins!
Sign up and join! You might win a FREE TRIP to Kuala Lumpur Malaysia. You will be joining 500 South East Asian Youth and meet icons of change.
TO JOIN Click the link below and ask others to join you too…
http://philippines.youthsays.com/seachange/go/s14
TO CHECK OUT THE YES2009 TRIP DETAILS Click the link:
http://blog.youthsays.com/seachange/yes2009-trip/
Deadline is extended until this Sunday. This is YOUR time to be heard. YOUR time and chance to make a change!!!
Join Now!
By: Widowed Patch, join her with her mission to change
No to Constituent Assembly (ConAss)!!!
Wednesday, June 10, 2009No to CONASS!
I am a Filipino and despite all the negative publicity surrounding our race, I am proud to be one. The news that Congress is bent on pursuing a change in the form of the government through a constituent assembly concerns me deeply. I believe, as our Congressmen do, that change is very much needed to revive our country from the paralyzing weakness it has long suffered from. However, we cannot jumpstart that needed change by being in such a hurry.
As most of our senate said:
"Charter change must be done correctly, at the proper time, definitely after the May 2010 elections, and for the right reasons, that is, for national, not personal and vested interests, and within the legal means under the Constitution"
Simply saying, if the Constituent Assembly was approved, the GMA Regime will continue. Changing the type of our government from Democratic to Parliamentary with one corrupt leader named Gloria Macapagal Arroyo and a money-oriented congress will lead our country to a no-no destination.
This is our chance, as a people of the Republic of the Philippines, kaya natin to! Help our country to survive and to change within you, within us youth. As our beloved national hero Jose Rizal said, "Ang kabataan ay ang pag-asa ng bayan (the youth is the hope of the country)". Let us ask our selves "Ako'y isa sa kabataan na tinutukoy ni Rizal, naging pag-asa ba ako ng aking bayan? (I am the youth Rizal's talking about, have i become the country's hope?)".
"Ngayon, ang kabataan ay maa-asahan na....(Today, the youth became responsible...)" - Chiz Escudero
God Bless Philippines!
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The Idea of Online Business
Friday, January 23, 2009Some Filipinos think online money making is tough in Philippines? No. There are a lot of ideas to make online money from not only Philippines but from anywhere in the world . You can find advertisements on online money making opportunities and businesses that you can do right from Philippines. But remember, the Internet not only connects your business to big traffic, but also your servers to Internet hackers and malware. Thats why Internet security is so vital. So, along with some ideas on making money online, you also need some knowledge on how to improve the Internet security of your business.
Online Money making ideas
Online money making can be quite tough for people in Philippines, especially when they don't want to spend money or if they don't have a website. But ideas do exist if you want to go the “free” way. You cannot expect to get rich in a flash nevertheless there are some online money making opportunities to help you make money without any investment. One way is to start a blog on free platforms like Wordpress or Blogger, and add Google Adsense or other pay per click ads. You can add niche content on something you are passionate about and also something people are looking for, so that more traffic is driven to your blog.
You will be paid for every click on these ads. You can also market affiliate links to earn money. There are some free affiliate link programs available. All you have to do is market the link through advertisement techniques like forums, blogging, articles etc. You will be paid when people buy through your link Another online money making technique is taking part in free online paid surveys. Businesses conduct surveys to know about trends in a particular locality like our own Philippines for example. You can make use of these surveys, but don't expect big money.
Advertisement Ideas for better Traffic
If you own an online money making website, you should not only concentrate on design but also on traffic. You need traffic to get repeat visitors. Remember, repeat visitors are the ones who are going to buy something from your website. You can achieve this by using good advertisement methods like journals, web, news media and magazines. The goal of the advertisement should be to persuade the visitor on the legitimacy of your business. Another way of improving your online money making efforts is including well written and related articles on your website. You can also take part in forums to meet fellow Internet entrepreneurs from Philippines and share business ideas. Remember, traffic is directly proportional to the profit you are going to get.
Ideas for improving Internet security
If you have employees working for your e-business, you need to educate them about viruses, Trojans and others that can attack via the web. You can use web filters to prevent your employees from visiting harmful websites. Also install a centrally controllable anti-virus software and Firewall to prevent worms from web traffic accessing your computer.
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Award: The World Wide Web Awards(tm) Friendship Award
Tuesday, December 9, 2008I would like to thank my abang Kevin. Abang means big brother on malaysian, and Kevin told me that. He gave me this award for a purpose. Simple purpose, but means very very comforting :)
Here's my award i'm proud to share and dedicate with you, the The World Wide Web Awards(tm) Friendship Award .....(drum rolling)
And of course! i would like to pass this award to these people who are emotionally close to me.
A Story of A Girl
☆ gLiTteR mInDeD ☆
D I V I N E
A Woman On A Journey : MsRay
PinayKeyPoint : “A Glimpse to the Pearl”
Ria : Live Love Laugh
Mai : sharing my thoughts, my world... enjoying life!
I Feel Okay
SURVIVOR: the REALITY of my LIFE
Konten Hape
Private Territory
Visual Appeal
Imagination is more important than knowledge
Inspire Me
blog-w.co.cc
InfoWings
WARSHOCK
Jessie's bloggie
Blog to Learn
HealthnBeyond.com
I am Neri
Symbian Library
Kathezai | The rocker girl
Chazlizone
Only Bob's Opinion
Ariawijaya
Dhemcy Dias
Dias Family Spot
Simple Things Can't Be Ignored
Kryk Loves You
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I am Grateful Because...
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
1. I always spend my time with my soon-to-be-wife, she completes me and nothing more!
2. I have a family with their overwhelming love and support.
3. I have my friends online and real life that i could always count on.
4. God always provide the better to be better.
5. God never leave me, ever since!
Be Thankful
"Be thankful that you don't already have everything you desire,
If you did, what would there be to look forward to?
Be thankful when you don't know something
For it gives you the opportunity to learn.
Be thankful for the difficult times,
During those times you grow.
Be thankful for your limitations
Because they give you opportunities for improvement.
Be thankful for each new challenge
Because it will build your strength and character.
Be thankful for your mistakes
They will teach you valuable lessons.
Be thankful when you're tired and weary
Because it means you've made a difference.
It is easy to be thankful for the good things.
A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who are
also thankful for the setbacks.
GRATITUDE can turn a negative into a positive.
Find a way to be thankful for your troubles
and they can become your blessings."
Thank you ate Ray for this tag! And now i am passing this to the following bloggers:
PinayKeyPoint
Ria Stevenson
WarShock
Kathezai
Vhing
Rules:
1. Give 5 reasons how grateful you are
2. pass to 5 bloggers. good luck
YouTube Becoming Pornography Shareaza of Asian Subscribers?
Tuesday, November 11, 2008Hot, sex, boobs, teens, asian, cum, whore, sluts for free. These video titles can be easily accessed by minors (18 below) on video streaming sites. Sites also allow users to upload and stream hot clips regarding they're ages 18 and above for free. Yes for free!Well, it is very easy to pretend that you're on the legal age even if not. You'll just have to click "Yes i agree", then it's all yours.
Youtube.com I bet many of you dont know that the owner of the youtube.com online video streaming site was the giant, Google.com. How could this be if google was helping to fight againts pornography?
Upon searching for examples, the search query gave me these numerous results:
http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=sex&search_type=&aq=f
These examples, could harm the innocent minds of the children. How will google stop this? how will the government help to stop the spreading of this malady?
According to The Anti-Pornography League(visit site), pornography directly leads to the objectification and dehumanization of women. Pornography presents women as objects, sexualized means to gratification. Pornography is not about "sexuality", it has nothing to do with "sex" at all. Pornography is blatant and utter exploitation, plain and simple.
Men who view pornography do not limit the objectification to the woman on the screen/magazine, as though that wasn't bad enough. They take the image and apply it to all women: your sister, mother, wife, girlfriend, etc. Soon, the object becomes a woman at the office, a co-worker, friend, or neighbor. The object becomes you or someone you love.
Pornography's influence is not limited to where it is presented. Those who use it are changed by it. It becomes acceptable in their minds for them to treat all women in the way they see the women in the pornography. It becomes "okay" for them to view women as sexual objects. When men treat women as sexual objects, they do not relate to them on a human to human level. They begin to think it is all right for them to say things to them they would never say to a fellow human being. The respect, the camaraderie is lost.
Well-known companies you didn't know supported pornography
AT&T, Google (Yahoo), ABC, Hilton, Marriott, Blockbuster Video, Borders, Barnes and Noble, and DirecTV.
Also worth noting, both Disney and America Online opposed legislation to combat pornography on the internet.
Think Yahoo's really done with porn?
Yahoo runs Google, a different kind of search engine.
How different?
For a great stretch of time there, when you went to Google and did a search on "anti-pornography", a group of pornographic sites came up with a pornographic ad banner at the top.
Is profit really more important than customer safety?
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The Bloggosphere
Wednesday, October 15, 2008Hello to all my visitors! My site is open for link exchange partnership! If you have a blog, personal website, community forum, blah blah blah, then you're in! All you have to do is post a comment here that you're linking me so that i will link you back in my site as soon as possible.
Please do not forget to post your links inside your comment plus the description of the site you want me to link to. Posting a comment automatically subjected to my link exchange registration. I will review your site first. Unpleasant sites are not allowed! (porn sites, green ideas, or anything that could mislead the public especially the minors).
You'll be informed if your site was approved and linked!
And the sites on this bloggosphere are:
Nickole
Saging
A Story of A Girl
☆ gLiTteR mInDeD ☆
D I V I N E
A Woman On A Journey : MsRay
PinayKeyPoint : “A Glimpse to the Pearl”
Ria : Live Love Laugh
Mai : sharing my thoughts, my world... enjoying life!
I Feel Okay
SURVIVOR: the REALITY of my LIFE
Konten Hape
Private Territory
Visual Appeal
Imagination is more important than knowledge
Inspire Me
blog-w.co.cc
InfoWings
WARSHOCK
Jessie's bloggie
Blog to Learn
HealthnBeyond.com
I am Neri
Symbian Library
Kathezai | The rocker girl
Chazlizone
Only Bob's Opinion
Ariawijaya
Dhemcy Dias
Dias Family Spot
Simple Things Can't Be Ignored
Kryk Loves You
Louisa | A Drum Rocker Wannabe
Avengers Corner
Urban Ermitanyo
Thinks Free
We Can Do it
Nichola(s) Care
Mount Pinatubo Tour
Historical RP Cyber Terrorism
Friday, October 10, 2008In November 16, 2001, Saturday, a group of so-called "white hat" Filipino hackers called Asian Pride launched a series of attacks on several local websites. The hackers, who apparently are based outside the Philippines, claim they are out to teach Filipino local Internet service providers (ISPs) a lesson in Internet security.
Calling it "the 4 o Clock project," Asian Pride, which claims to be composed of Filipino freelance security enthusiasts, was allegedly able to intrude into the servers of local ISP Mosaic Communications Inc (MosCom), uploading executable programs that would eventually modify a website’s main page.
White hat hackers claim that they are not out to cause any damage, but only hack into systems to test vulnerabilities.
erry Liao, operations manager of local portal Brainshare Online at ww.brainshare.com.ph, claimed that they were among the first to report the incident to MosCom administrators on Saturday morning. A mirror of the defaced website is at http://www.expressions.com.ph/img/10101/asianpride/www.brainshare.com.ph.htm.
Apart from Brainshare Online, dcoder claimed that the group also defaced the website of broadcast giant ABS-CBN.
For his part, Liao said that they detected problems around 7:30 a.m. on Saturday.
According to Liao, Brainshare Online was restored around 7:45 a.m. that day, but at around 9 a.m. he received error messages, as the server could not be accessed.
In a separate interview, Robertson Chiang, vice president for technology of MosCom, said that the ISP decided to direct surfers to another server after getting reports of the hacking incident on Saturday.
"It was only an attack on one machine. It was an old one where we host a few dozen clients," Chiang said.
Asked how the hackers were able to get into the server, he said that considering it was an "old Unix machine," they were not able to patch security holes.
"It was partly our fault," he added.
Liao said that MosCom was able to restore "normal" operations between 6 to 7 p.m. on Saturday.
"The server was completely reformatted using a new system that already includes the security patches," Chiang said.
MosCom is now conducting an inventory of all its servers, to check if similar security problems exist in the "new" systems.
"It’s been a long time, I hope you can wake those arrogant administrators, specially those with PH-CERT (Philippine Computer Emergency Response Team). We tried to warn and help them on securing (local) websites, but they just laughed at us and ignored us," the hacker codenamed dcoder told INQ7.net via e-mail.
"So my fellow haxor keech of FDN [Filipino developers network] organized a Project called 4'Oclock, where we will be defacing all ph sites, to give this administrators a wake up call.
"Well I can't explain much right now, but if you read all the messages on the selected defacements, it might give you an idea on what we are fighting for," dcoder added.
In the mirror of the defaced Brainshare Online website, Asian Pride explained:
"The 4 o Clock project is a system composed of Filipino freelance security enthusiasts that aims to disseminate the importance of Information security here in the Philippines. This team has conducted a survey, scanning random (website) hosts and informing the people (Internet service provider administrators) about (problems). (We then) encourage them to fix their servers. We have no intention, however, of destroying, and/or hijacking information, ... We are not paid to do this."
Liao somehow agreed. He observed that while the hackers were able to "penetrate" MosCom’s servers, they did not delete or destroy any files.
The hackers uploaded programs (executable files) that will only run when a website administrator begins uploading the new main page (index) into the server. The program blocks anyone from uploading into the server, but prompts the user to download a new file, which includes a message explaining the purpose of the defacement.
Liao, however, said that the hackers also offered the option not to accept the new file. "It sort of gives you permission to delete the files," he added.
Asian Pride claimed that "more than 90 percent of (MosCom’s) servers can be exploited through common vulnerabilities, therefore jeopardizing the security of their clients as well as their office."
The group said that they have warned administrators of MosCom of vulnerabilities, "but were just subjected to insult, despite their professional approach."
"They scorned us with their witty remarks, bragging about their degrees, and that we knew less. So what did they accomplish? Absolutely nothing productive," the group added.
Local websites hit by hackers were hosted at the virtual server with the address at kenshin.mozcom.com.
The list of websites that the group claimed to have attacked on Saturday may be seen at http://www.expressions.com.ph/img/10101/asianpride/kenshin.mozcom.com.txt and http://www.expressions.com.ph/img/10101/asianpride/.
"This ain’t no kiddy games, and were ain’t your average script kiddies. We broke into these sites not randomly, but we targeted specific sites, specially those sites that are 100% secure..." Asian Pride said.
The hackers are out to target other Philippine ISPs, and dcoder claimed that the next victim might be PhilOnline.
MosCom’s Chiang, however, insisted that these hackers are only script kiddies.
Other alleged members of the group include "sch1z0phr3n1c," "jollogs," "jayv[ee," "marcster," "batusai_slasher," and "keech."
http://progsystem.free.fr/hackingnews.htm#Hackers%20launch
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Naked Hot Pinay Sex Scandal
Thursday, October 9, 2008Well oh well, you’ve just visited this post. First off, im gonna tell you that you’re on a wrong site and wrong bad time. This post has nothing to do with Naked Hot Pinay Sex Scandal! I am also joining the battle against the real porn sites promoting Pinay Scandal materials such as Pinay Sex Scandal Video, Pinay Sex Scandal DVD, and other related materials.
More on Sex, and Pinay Scandal related stories:
* Looking for Free Pinay Sex
* Pinay Sex Video (Vedio), An Experiment
* Sex with You
* Sex, Sexual Romance, Sexual Intercourse: Questions Answered
* S.E.X. - Lyfe Jennings
* Cool Sex Lamp
* Sex Freak
* No Blog No Sex Policy
* The Right Timing for Sex to Have Baby
* How To Enjoy Sex
* Looking for Wife
* Hentai Movie
* Hentai Download
* Hentai Popular
* Hentai New Release
* Naruto Hentai
* Naruto Hentai images
* Pinay Sex Video (Vedio), An Experiment
* Pinay Teen Sex Experiment On First Stage of Success
* Maasin City Scandal, Online Show
* Pinay Teens
* University Scandal
* Club Sex
* Boso
* Stripped
* Nip Slipped
* Dressing Room
* Pinay Scandal Experiment Success and Clarification
* How Important Are The Visits Made by Porn-Loving Guys To This Blog?
* Porn Traffic Is Now Dying
How will this help?
Simple, it will help take control the real porn sites offering to view to these Pinay Scandals by giving to Google and other search engines like Yahoo the most trafficked sites. =)
Philippine Literary Works: Tanging Pamana by Hilario L. Coronel
"Karunungan … tanging pamana ng magulang na sasandatahin ng anak sa pagtugpa sa dako pa roon ng buhay."
Kung may mga amang matatala sa kasaysayan dahil sa kahigpitan ng anak, si Tatang ay makakabilang marahil. Hindi naman malupit si Tatang. Sa kanya, basta tama ka’y tama ka, bagamat hindi ka niya pupurihin nang harapan. Ngunit kapag gumawa ka ng kaaliwaswasan ay humanda ka’t madudurog sa iyo ang lanubo ng bayabas.
Hindi mawawalan si Tatang ng lanubo ng bayabas na nakasuksok sa dingding. Lagi ring nakasabit sa isang pako sa dingding ang kanyang lumang sinturon. Bihirang mamalo si Tatang, ngunit pangingilagan mo naman ang kabihiraang iyon.
Kaipala’y dahil sa ako ang bunsong anak na lalaki kung kaya malimit na ako ang kasama ni Tatang kung umaahon siya sa bayan. Madalas ituro sa akin ni Tatang ang paaralang elementarya sa kabayanan.
Diyan ka mag-aaral anak, pagkatapos mo ng apat na grado sa ‘tin, — laging sinasabi ni Tatang.
Ngunit hindi ang sinasabi noon ni Tatang ang laman ng aking isipan. Ang ibig ko’y makahiwalay sa kanya at makasama sa maraming batang nagtakbu-takbo sa daan. Ang nasa gunita ko’y ang holen at buwal-preso na iniwan ko sa amin.
Wala akong hilig sa pag-aaral noon. Nakaiinip sa akin ang pag-upo sa desk sa loob ng iskuwelahan. Inaantok akong lagi sa pakikinig sa pagkukuwento ng aming maestra. Subalit hindi ko masasabi iyon kay Tatang. Tiyak na makakagalitan lamang niya ako.
Minsan ay napalaban ako ng babag sa iskuwelahan. Nang umuwi ako’y punit-punit ang aking damit. Nalaman pala agad iyon ni Tatang. Hindi pa ako nakakapanhik ay nakita ko na sa pinto si Tatang — naghihintay sa akin. Halos mangatog ako sa takot.
Nang mailapag ko ang aking mga libro sa papag ay narinig kong nagsalita si Tatang. Hindi natuloy ang tangka kong pagpanaog. Patag na patag ang boses ni Tatang.
–Dumapa ka!
Wala akong nagawa kundi umunat sa sahig. Ngunit nakataas ang aking ulo. T-tatang.. — parang pagtutul ko.
–Baba’ng ulo!
Pumikit na lamang ako matapos kong idikit ang aking mukha sa sahig.
–Di ba kabilin-bilinan ko’y huwag kang makikipagbabag?
–Opo!–
Di ba kabilin-bilinan ko’y ang pag-aaral ang asikasuhin mo?
Opo!
Uli-uli’y magtatanda ka!
Hindi na ako nakasagot sapagkat lumagapak na sa aking pigi ang sinturon ni Tatang. Kung mamalo si Tatang ay minsan lamang, hindi na inuulit sapagkat talagang hindi na kailangang ulitin. Halos mamilipit ako sa sakit. Subalit hindi man lamang ako nakaingit.
Ayaw na ayaw ni Tatang na kami’y iiyak dahil lamang sa pagkakapalo. Ang pag-iyak daw ay tanda ng kahinaan ng pusong-babae.
Ang ano mang pagkagalit ni Tatang ay madali niyang malilimot. Nang hapong iyong mapalo ako ay sa tabi ko siya nahiga sa pagtulog.
–Mag-aral kang mabuti, anak. Ayokong ang pinagdaanan ko’y manahin pa. Ikaw man lang e maiba sa mga kapatid mo. Ikaw man lang e me marating…
Ngunit hindi ko kayang unawain noon ang sinasabi ni Tatang. Ang nararamdaman ko’y hapdi ng aking pigi. Ang nasa dibdib ko’y ang pagtatampo at marahil ay sama ng loob kay Tatang dahil sa pagkakapalo sa akin.
–’yan lang ang tanging pamanang maiiwan ko sa ‘yo.
Lalong hindi ko nauunawaan ang pangungusap na iyon ni Tatang. Pumikit ako nang mariin, ngunit nanatili akong gising. Nagtulug-tulugan ako, at makaraan ang ilang sandali’y bumangon si Tatang at umalis sa aking tabi.
Kung ano ang higpit ni Tatang ay siya namang luwag ni Inang, bagamat kapag sinabi ni Tatang na ayaw niya ay walang masabi ang aking ina. Lahat kaming magkakapatid ay di makasuway kay Tatang. At kapag nagsasalita siya’y tahimik kaming lahat. Sa munting pagkakamali nami’y "sinasabon" kami at kapag kaaliwaswasan na nga ay lanubo ng bayabas o lumang sinturon ang sasayad sa aming pigi.
Subalit nagagawa rin ni Tatang na maging masaya kami. At matapos siyang "magsermon", ang pangangaral niya’y nauuwi sa pagpapatawa. Ako ang laging nakikita ni Tatang sa gayong pagkakataon.
–Suminga ka nga muna,– sasabihin ni Tatang sa akin, — tila me bara’ng ilong mo.
Hindi ako sasagot; ni hindi matatawa. Kung mangiti man ako’y pilit lamang. Sa loob-loob ko, lagi na lamang ako ang nakakagalitan. Sapagkat sa aming magkakapatid ay madalas na ako ang nakakatikim ng sinturon ni Tatang. At kahit nagpapatawa si Tatang, ang nagugunita ko’y ang matitinding palong tinanggap ko at kaipala’y tatanggapin pa.
Nang nasa haiskul na ako’y hindi na nagagamit sa akin ni Tatang ang lanubo ng bayabas at ang lumang sinturon. Subalit mahigpit pa rin siya, nakikita pa rin nyang lagi ang munting pagkakamali at pagkukulang ko, hindi ko pa rin masunod ang balang maibigan ko.
Isang kamag-aral na tagabayan a ng madalas kong ihatid sa pag-uwi. Yaon ang aking unang pag-ibig. Ngunit sa di ko malamang pangyayari, nabalitaan iyon ni Tatang.
–Huwag mo munang isipin ang pag-aasawa. Madaling humanap ng mapapangasawa…kapag tapos ka’y babae na ang hahabol sa’yo…
–Anong gagawin mo kung magkakaasawa ka?Labingwalong taon ka lang. Gusto mo bang matulad sa ibang kapatid mong nagsipag-asawa agad…na nakatayo pang tanim na palay e wala nang uhay?
Marami pang sinabi si Tatang ngunit ang huling pangungusap niya’y parang idinuldok sa aking mukha.
Batang-bata ka pa…
–Bata pa bang palagay n’yo sa kin?–Napalakas ang aking tinig.
Nabigla si Tatang. Ako ma’y nabigla rin sa pagkakasagot sa kanya. Inaasahan kong hahagilapin ni Tatang ang lumang sinturon o ang lanubo ng bayabas at ako’y bibirahan ng hagupit. Ngunit naglapat lamang ang mga labi ni Tatang. At pagkaraa’y nanaog siya.
Kinabukasan ay wala man lamang binanggit si Tatang ukol sa akin nang nag-aagahan na kami. Hindi ako makatingin kay Tatang.
Tuwing hapon, bago kumalat ang dilim, ay nasa amin na ako. Datapwa, isang araw ay napasama ako sa isang kaklasa sa pag-aaral ng sayaw. Malapit nang magdaos ng sayawan ang aming klase at ibig kong makadalo. Nang umuwi ako’y maghahating gabi na.
Dinatnan kong si Tatang na lamang ang gising sa amin. Nagmano akong kinakabahan. Ngunit hindi niya itinanong kung bakit ako ginabi sa pag-uwi. Hindi ko nakita ang dating anyo niya kung ako’y nakakagawa ng isang bagay na hindi nya naibigan.
–Kumain ka na ba?–Iyon lamang ang itinanong ni Tatang. Binantayan ako ni Tatang habang kumakain. At nang patayin niya ang gasera at mahiga siya ay nang nakahiga na ako.
Hindi ko na kinaringgan ng pangaral si Tatang buhat noon. Kung ginagabi ako sa pag-uwi’y wala siyang sinasabi. Kung nakagagawa ako ng mumunting pagkakamali na dating ikinagagalit niya ay hindi na nagsisiklab.
Nang muli kong marinig ang pangaral ni Tatang ay hindi ako nakagagawa ng ano mang pagkukulang o pagkakamaling sukat niyang ikagalit. Noo’y ibang-iba ang pagsasalita ni Tatang.
Tapos ka na ng haiskul, anak. Palagay ko’y me sapat ka nang lakas at puhunan upang ikaw na’ng magpatuloy sa ‘ming nasimulan na. Sikapin mong makakita ng trabaho sa Maynila…
Tumango lamang ako. Nakatitig ako sa mukha ni Tatang.
–Pero higit sa lahat, sikapin mong makapag-aral at makatapos. Wala kaming maipamamana sa’yo, –at nabasag ang datig patag at matigas na tinig ni Tatang.
Wala kaming maaangking sariling lupa kundi ang putik na dumikit sa sinelas.
…Ikaw man lang e maiba sa ‘yong mga kapatid.
Sa pagkakatitig ko noon kay Tatang nakita ang maraming taong pinagdaanan ng aking ama; marami nang salit na puti ang kanyang buhok, malalim ang gitla sa kanyang noo, at bahagya na siyang hukot.
Saka ko biglang nagunita ang taong nakaraan - kung papaano kami napalaki ni Tatang sa tulong ni Inang. Isang magsasaka si Tatang. Kung walang trabaho sa bukid ay lumuluwas siya ng Maynila at nakararating sa mga kanugnog bayan sa pag-aanluwagi. Nagtrabaho rin si Tatang sa patubig na itinayo sa aming lalawigan. Si Inang nama’y tumatanggap ng tahiin. Naging katulong siya ni Tatang sa lahat ng hirap sa pagpapalaki sa amin.
Kinasihan naman ako ng kapalaran sa Maynila. NAkakita ako ng trabaho at nakapag-aral sa gabi. Isinulat ko agad iyon sa aking ama at ina. Alam kong labis nilang ikagagalak ang balitang iyon. Sa aming nayon ay ako man ang isang anak e para matutong bumasa at sumulat lamang. Pagkatapos e kinakatulong na sa bukid, o sa pagtitinda at paglala ng sumbrero.
Nasaktan ang aking damdamin sa ipinagtapat na iyon ni Inang. At sa isipan ko’y nagtumining ang pasiyang magsikap sa pag-aaral at ipakilalang mayroon akong mararating.
Dumalang ang pagkikita namin ni Tatang at ni Inang. Nagsikap ako sa pag-aaral, ginawa kong araw ang gabi, hanggang makatapos ako ng karunungan sa pamamahayag at mapaugnay sa isang malaganap na lingguhan.
Nasa pasulatan ako isang araw nang tumanggap ako ng pabalita mula sa amin: malubha raw si Tatang.
Isang kamag-anak namin ang lumuwas at nagbalita: –Ipinagbilin ka ng Inang mo. Lagi kang hinahanap ng iyong ama!
Nabigla ako sa balitang iyon. Nagpaalam ako sa aming patnugot at ako’y karakang umuwi.
Dinatnan kong nakaratay si Tatang. Yayat na yayat siya. Dinapuan pala ng karamdaman si Tatang, ngunit hindi pa ganap na magaling ay nanaog at nagbunot ng damo sa aming bakuran. Nabinat si Tatang. Ayon sa manggagamot na tumingin ay ibigay raw kay Tatang ang anumang maibigan nya.
Nakapagsasalita pa nang malinaw si Tatang at malinaw pa rin ang kanyang paningin. Nakilala niya agad ako nang lumapit. Ang kauna-unahang nakapag-aral sa isang tanyag na unibersidad sa Maynila pagkaraan ng liberasyion.
Pagkaraan ng isang buwan ay umuwi ako sa amin. Tuwang-tuwa si Inang. Tatayo-uupo naman si Tatang at tingin nang tingin sa akin. Naroroon ang aking ibang mga kapatid na pawang may asawa na.
Nang gabing iyon, bago matulog ay kaharap ko si Tatang at si Inang ang salita ng salita. Pasingit-singit lamang si Tatang.
Tingnan mo, anak, maraming nakapupuri sa Tatang mo–ani ni Inang–katulad din daw natin silang `sang kahig`sang tuka e nakapagpapaaral pa kami ng anak sa Maynila.
–Hindi naman lahat, –lahok ni Tatang.
Napatingin ako kay Tatang at pagkaraa’y kay Inang.
–Oo nga, anak–amin ni Inang–Kung me nakapupuri man sa `min ng `yong ama e meron din namang kumukutya.
–Ano hong kumukutya?–Napakunot-noo ako.
–Napakalakas daw ng loob namin. Kinakaya raw namin ang hindi kaya.
Napakagat labi ako. Sa aming nayon at talagang gayon–kung may natutuwa man sa iyo’y hindi naman nawawalan ng nangingimbulo o naiinggit.
–Pero wag mo silang intindihin anak–patuloy ni Inang.–Alam mo naman dito sa `tin kung pinapag-aral.
–Anuman ang ipagkaloob ng Diyos, anak–simula ni Tatang, e hindi na `tong nag-aalala..Me maiiwan na `kong pamana sa`yo. Wala akong tanging maipagbibilin sa `yo kundi..papag-aralin mo ang `yong kapatid na bunso..at..pumili ka na ng mapapangasawang..kung buhay man ako’y maipagmamalaki ko..
Ibig kong magsalita ngunit tuyong-tuyo ang aking lalamunan. Yaon ang kahulihulihang pangaral sa akin ni Tatang. Ibig kong maiyak. Subalit nagunita kong ayaw ni Tatang ng umiiyak. Tumalikod na lamang ako upang ikubli ko sa kanya ang luhang nangingilid sa aking mga mata.
Nang ganap kong maunawaan ang kahulugan ng lahat ng paghihigpit ni Tatang, ng kanyang mga pangaral, ng kanyang pagsisikap na makapag-aral ako ay noong umaga ng ikawalo ng Mayo. Apat na taon na ngayon ang nakakaraan.
Noon yumao si Tatang.
Napaiyak ako at nalaglag ang aking luha. Ngunit ang pag-iyak ko’y isang pagkaunawa sa tanging pamanang sinasabi ni Tatang. Ang tahimik kong pagluha, habang ipinapasok sa nitso ang bangkay ni Tatang ay isang pagkaunawa sa lahat ng paghihigpit ni Tatang na natutuhan kong paghimagsikan. Sa paghihigpit na yao’y naihanda ako ni Tatang sa pagharap sa buhay.
Yaon ang tanging pamanang naiwan ni Tatang sa akin…Feel free to share it!
Poem: Worthless...
A triple dose of metamphetamine
Another shot of morphine and heroin
When things couldn’t get even better
Let’s try another tranquilizer
These are what John takes everyday
Angels that make him A-okay
It started with his friends one time
Then it evolved to psychedelics
And he forgot to dine
Next thing you know he’s thin to the bone
For days hasn’t washed himself and sufferd depression
He lost his sanity because of that very reason
What will be his life’s destination?
Once that quite, happy, peaceful family
Now became worse than disorderly
That trusted and disciplined family member
Now a thrown-away, worthless drug abuser
Not only that you see
Juan has become a burden to the community
A wanted criminal, robber, and murderer
A wasted resource to his mother
What will be his life’s destination?
What good can he ever bring?
Will there be tomorrow still waiting?
by: Colegio San Agustin - Bacolod, Nursing 1F 1st Semester 2008,
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